miss u alot lerh..

whole day like doing nothing nia.. lazy,lepak,ntg to do.. still thinking bout the hight-lighted word on last post.. now gonna chg d.. why we two always get into this kind of situation??

haihz..

dunno i still got chance to see her come back to me or nt.. seriously.. now just thinking somewhere to go.. as long as dun wan come back this 'mafan' place.. alot of prob, alot of worries.. what can i do? 

who can tell me? anyone? someone? noone?

these few days like.. open my eye and see the time.. 4am++ and i cant fall in sleep again.. that feeling just like dunno until when i can hang on and dunno when i will 'deng em soon' (tak tahan)..

i ask a stupid question to someone.. ' ONE DAY IF YPU CANOT SEE ME ANYMORE, WHAT WILL YOU DO?' then i realize.. why i ask this? is it i really wanna quit all of this? leave this sad place? leave her? 

NO!! i cant.. if i leave, who will take care of her? who will make her happy if she sad? who can comfort her?  haihz.. ARRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry for posting the same prob of me and her here.. dun get angry with me.. this is my style.. those who dunno me last time, then now you know me ady..

now days feel like dun wanna play so much and joke so much d.. but act cool very difficult lerh..

if there was anyone can help me to solve the prob and make us back together then good la.. i will beg that person until he/she do for me.. haihz.. still waiting for her..

I Really Love You Dam Much lo... im here for you.. im waiting for you.. *sobs*

hurts alot...

haihz...there are no one at home..

just me.. boring dao... T.T think back many things happened this month..the most unforgetable things is the story bout jacob and lola.. now days just dam dam dam empty with out her.. its just because of some little small tiny mistake, we two end up like two magnet face the same pole to one another.. argghhhh!!! many times i wanna cry, but dunno what the heck stop me from crying.. cant cry out.. almost everyday also sad when thinking bout it.. why she wanna treat me like that?

we two not suppose to be like that rite? nw days when i meet her or wanna talk with her, just like got 1 huge and tall wall blocking..

'WHAT THE HECK is going on with u??'  when i think bout that high-lighted sentences, really feel like crying.. so so so dam san fu.. T.T 

there is nothing i can do.. just wait until the day u come back to me.. hope i can tahan la..

Sacrifice

story continued...

on the same day evening, jacob get the result from lola, it was simon told lola not to close with jacob anymore and lola follow what he says... when jacob heard bout it, he feel damn sad.. almost cried out, but the tears cant fall from his eyes.. jacob just ask from explanation and try to pull back the relationship between him and lola, but at the end jacob know that he still need to sacrifice for lola.. and he choose to sacrifice, this time wont be fake anymore.. it really happen on jacob, and he dunno how lola feel when she decided to sacrifice a guy that treat her damn good until can die for her.. since that moment they really not close anymore, jacob need to wait until someday lola and simon love story end, then only lola can back to his side.. jacob promise lola to make her happy always when she was being sad or hurt by simon, jacob also promise lola no matter what happen to her, he will be there for her and wont let her fall.. but what can jacob do now is just to wait for lola, if lola can last long with simon happily, jacob also will feel happy for her.. as long as lola happy, jacob will do anything for her including sacrifice himself.. hope that jacob's sacrifice will not be wasted and hope that it is worth to see lola happy at the end.. 

from now on, jacob is alone again.. until the day lola come back..

End

Sacrifice..

jacob loves lola alot until he can die for her.. long time ago, they were a pair of sweet couple.. but because of some probs, they break up.. and lola got a new boy friend who named simon.. simon treat lola very good and lola loves him so much.. when jacob knows bout it, he really felt sad cause he was still waiting for lola to come back to him but not.. after being sad for few week, he knows that loving someone not suppose to be with that girl/guy, as long as the one he loves stay happy then is more than enough.. since that time, jacob and lola relation is just very special for both of them.. thay need each other all the time, but not boyfren and girlfren.. because lola was girlfren of simon.. lola told most of her prob with simon to jacob and jacob helped her to solve most of the probs with simon and simon dunno bout it.. on the day after lola and simon being together for two months, simon feel that lola found someone that can treat her better and start to complain bout it.. lola told jacob and ask jacob for help, but out of sudden, simon knows bout lola is telling their prob to jacob.. then lola and simon was quarrel until they almost breakup.. but on the other hand, jacob just try his best to comfort lola and tell her not to worry, cause everything will be ok.. then on the next day, they also settled their prob and back to normal..

but because of that conflict happened, lola was planning to sacrifice the relation between her and jacob and she ask jacob what to do.. jacob told her, '' if u can be happy, i'll do anything for u including sacrifice myself..'' it was so great.. after that conversation, jacob start not to care bout lola and simon anymore.. but jacob just cant fall asleep for whole night and keep thinking that how stupid was he to make the stupid decison.. on the second morning, jacob ask lola to hold back decision and tells lola that he cant do anything without her presence in his life..

to be continue..

I Love this song's lyric

好心分手(王力宏/卢巧音)

(女):是否很惊讶讲不出说话 

     没错我是说你想分手吗 

     曾给你驯服到就像绵羊 

     何解会反咬你一下你知吗 

(男):也许该反省不应再说话 

     被放弃的我应有此报吗 

     如果我曾是个坏牧羊人能否再让我试一下抱一下 

(女):回头望伴你走从来未曾幸福过 

(男):恨太多没结果往事重提是折磨 

(女):下半生陪住你怀疑快乐也不多 

(男):被我伤让你痛 

(女):好心一早放开我 

     从头努力也坎坷统统不要好过 

(男):为何唱着这首歌 

     为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我 

(女):若注定有一点苦楚 

     不如自己亲手割破 

(男):回头吧不要走 

     不要这样离开我 

     恨太多没结果往事重提是折磨 

(女):下半生陪住你怀疑快乐也不多 

     没有心别再拖 

     好心一早放开我 

     从头努力也坎坷 

     统统不要好过 

(男):为何唱着这首歌 

     为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我 

(女):若勉强也分到不多不如什么也摔破 

(男):好心分手每天播 

(女):可知歌者也奈何 

(女):难行就无谓再拖 

好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷 

统统不要好过 

(男):为何唱着这首歌 

为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我 

(女):若注定有一点苦楚 

不如自己亲手割破

ask me for this song mp3

Tq.

Love it so much much much...

Pls be patient and finish it...

Try to understand it... tq.

真正愛妳的男生

真正愛妳的男生，

一直把妳的學號或是生日當密碼記著。

真正愛妳的男生，

在他累到不行時，還是傳了封短信給妳。

真正愛妳的男生，　

會在妳忘記回覆他短信時狠狠地說妳一頓。

真正愛妳的男生，　

很少當面讚美妳，可是心裡肯定妳是他最棒的。

真正愛妳的男生，

嘴巴都不甜，但是他吻妳時能傳遞他剛好的熱情。

真正愛妳的男生，

會老是惹妳生氣，但妳卻發覺不了他到底錯了什麼。

真正愛妳的男生，

不喜歡些小東西，卻還是把妳送的每個擺在他書桌上。

真正愛妳的男生，

會默默地記住妳不經意說過的話，在某時某刻重複它們。

真正愛妳的男生，

一下子說不出真正愛妳的理由，只知道自己並不想注意別人。

真正愛妳的男生，

總是叫妳小姑娘，可是當他做什麼重大決定時，都想聽聽妳的建議。

真正愛妳的男生，

當聽到妳對他講很”酸”的話時，他總是裝的很正經，其實心裡很甜很甜。

真正愛妳的男生，

只可能在妳一個人的面前流淚，當妳想為他擦淚時，其實也擦亮了為妳跳動的心。

真正愛妳的男生，

總覺得有些話只說一遍就夠了，因為妳已經知道他的心，說了太多，他怕變得不珍貴。

真正愛妳的男生，

當妳發脾氣時，只會不作聲的等妳把火發完，然後慢慢地說，妳明天有課嗎？要早點睡。

真正愛妳的男生，

可能不像妳一樣清楚記得某些紀念日，因為他覺得愛妳的每天都值得紀念，而不是簡單的數字。

真正愛妳的男生，

如果不能經常見妳，他會讓自己忙碌起來，為了不時常想妳，他總怕一想起後都無法收拾。

真正愛妳的男生，

不會輕易做出承諾，因為他想讓自己成為妳心中說話最算話的男子，只給妳最保證最安全的幸福。

真正愛妳的男生，

很想很想妳時，會突然買花送妳，然後傻傻地等妳，卻不知道手中的是月季，沒關係，他心裡送的是玫瑰。

真正愛妳的男生，

總會告訴妳別胡思亂想，因為其實他在為妳規劃最美麗真實的未來，同時讓妳無憂無慮的等他給的驚喜。

真正愛妳的男生，

當和妳發生爭執時，總是控制不了的先妥協，承認”我錯了”,過後發來個短信以”神經病”開頭，卻是”寶貝”結尾，事實上妳也清楚這次有點無理取鬧。

真正愛妳的男生，

不懂當妳生氣掛掉電話後應該立即打來，過了若干小時候會發條短信問妳氣消了沒？如果妳質問他為什麼那麼久才打來，他會小心的說，我怕在那樣說下去妳會離開我。

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真正愛你的女生

真正愛你的女生，

要你猜那樣，要你猜這樣，目的想要你知道她在想什麼，想錯她又罵你 "沒事啦!笨蛋" 。

真正愛你的女生，

是你最需要她時候，常裝著冷漠不關心，卻溫柔的問你沒事嗎?

真正愛你的女生，

雖然不知道你喜歡什麼，也甘心熬夜為你織一條圍巾，摺一大罐的星星。

真正愛你的女生，

經常想打電話給你，卻怕你覺得煩，要你開口才會打給你。

真正愛你的女生，

在朋友面前經常提起你和問你近況，卻否認自己喜歡你。

真正愛你的女生，

因為掛念你，難以入睡。

真正愛你的女生，

在你面前常亳不在意，其實她十分想知道你的心意。

真正愛你的女生，

只要你對她說"我很想妳"，她就會臉紅心跳加速，然後甜甜的笑，對著你說 "笨蛋...你說什麼啊?"

真正愛你的女生，

雖然相隔，她會幻想著你與她的未來而傻笑。

真正愛你的女生，

給你與其他的朋友過你的生日，仍更希望想要你獨自陪她過生日。

真正愛你的女生，

無論你傻或笨的，也會覺得你很酷。

真正愛你的女生，

傷她心，會睡覺前想起你而且不自然的流下淚。

真正愛你的女生，

想告訴你她的心裡的話,但是卻步,因為怕失去你。

真正愛你的女生，

是很多時候不會叫你名字，她會叫你笨蛋、豬頭、喂...

真正愛你的女生，

跟你聊天的時候總會把說話講得亂七八糟的，是因為她的舌頭在自己深愛的人面前打了很多很多的結。

真正愛你的女生，

是每天在電腦旁等候你上線，然而一看見你的名字，就會不知所措。

真正愛你的女生，

是你告訴她有關於其他女生的事情，雖然她臉上總是裝著一副不關心的樣子，但是心裡卻是酸酸的。